what in the world am i doing?

At some point a few weeks ago, I really sat back and thought about everything that I will have to endure when I study abroad in South Africa (being away from my family, friends, boyfriend, meeting and living new people, having to learn at least some of a new language, basically starting over in a new place). I found myself thinking "Oh My God! Danielle, what are you doing?"

I really don't have a good answer. I can explain the reason why I want to go to South Africa. I want to observe the racial gains since Apartheid ended. But, it's more than just that. I would have studied somewhere else if not South Africa.... I would have studied anywhere.

My mom said that when I was a little girl, like 3 or 4, I looked up at her and said "Why do we live here? Why have you never moved anywhere?" She said it made her feel bad because she was thinking "Dang.. Why have I never moved?" Lol (laugh outloud).

I've always known I would be a traveler and that I'd never stay in Chattanooga. I don't know where it comes from... I just have never felt that Chattanooga was my destiny.

But now that I am a week from leaving, Chattanooga as a destiny is starting to look real good. LOL! To be direct, I'm hella nervous. I got my plane tickets Monday and this whole thing became real. However, there's no way I am going to back down... I must go.